The Void of you

Living inside my mind
you sketch and etch
pathways of fictionality
that the void of you
created without permission
without my intuition
your memories cling like an addiction
despite or in spite of my dismissing

Living inside my mind
hop-scotch playing
giving power to
visions of this someone great
condition
you occupy
generating fuel for constant recognition
of the past
even though I crave eviction
from these paralyzing inner-workings
that I continually
use and abuse to analyze your former exhibition

Living inside my mind
immobilized on repeat without restriction
even though my present day situation
of transition
should grant me a fresh
disposition

Living inside my mind
I live silently
crippled by my own cognition
that who you are and who I believe you to be is a juxtaposition
and that the definition
of someone great
was just bullshit
that I chose to create

Living inside my mind
this nonfiction needs a new position
because I have made the decision
The void of you
The opposite of bliss
Is a self-generated cliff and
has nothing to do with you
and everything to do with me
And now with precision
I declare an intermission from this sabotaging prison


Living inside my mind